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i was in a realationship with a man aged  TWENTY TWO  of a ethnic origin  kurdish and i thought i was  THE ONE FOR HIM  with him. But he cheated on me and hurt me and lied to me.. he used the excuse of been too drunk to understand what he was doing i was with him for over a year and i left him and told him goodbye.. it was hard and four mounths he was in my thoughts about how much i liked him and how could he of betrayed me and been a total prick because when i was with him i lost my v to him and he threw it back in my face. and for four mounths i could not build a relationship with any other man and i had to move away from my old area because if i bumped into him again i would go crazy for him and do something really pathetic and stupid to get back at him or make him jelouse so i got my own flat in nortampton and about a mounth ago he texted me telling me he was sorry and he really did  ADORE me and he regrets WHAT he did and he called me and told me it will never happen again he wants me back and he wants to make a commitment..

i understand he is a bad boy he smokes GRASS a part of me craves him for  SOAL MATES and LOYALTY but another part of me says i deserve better than somebody who could break my heart all my friends tell me its a crush.,..