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I'm going to discover myself

• it's actually a fantastic feeling - understanding yourself; lots of people say: 'I don't like labels' or someting like that, but I do like understanding why I feel it like this (and why I do the strange things I do), what helps me understand and analyze my own experience, what helps me know myself a bit better.

• I'd like to know myself a bit better, I'd like to know it by heart - who I think I am, which pronouns I prefer, which name my good friends use to call me, which one acquaintances use, which name I use talking about myself, which one I use writing, what kind of people I like more, which religion is better for me, what things I'm interested in, what things I'm amazed of, what things are obvious for me but unclear for many others, what things are obvious for others but unclear for me, how to explain the parts of me they call 'her strange behaviour', 'embarrasing', 'stupid', 'impolite', which situations I remeber and which ones I don't, which situations I need to remember and which ones I don't, who I can fall in love with and who I can't, what kind of books I love, what kind of pets I'd like to have (or maybe no pets at all), what characters I sympathize and which ones I don't, what colours have meanings for me and what meanings they have, which words are more beautiful for me than other ones, which words have meanings and colours for me and how much meanings and colours they have, what my love to words mean and if someone else loves them as much as I do, what things make me feel angry, what ones make me feel indescribably excited, what ones inspire me and what ones make me cry so hard and why - because of sadness and empathy, because I can do nothing with that or because of injustice; what kind of poems I love writing, what kind of poems I can write, which parts of me other people like (the ones I like), which parts of me they don't (do I like them myself?), which poems are more similar to me, which poems are less similar to me, which ones of my poems seem sincere to me, what every winter reminds me of, what activities I love doing depend on time, how I will act if I fall in love, which languages I love more, than other ones because of their sounds, what kind of things I'd like to do and what kind of things I'd never like to do, if I love touching other people, if I love feeling somebody touching me, what the words above mean to me, what I mean to me.

• I have lots of questions to ask myself, because I look like a new land somebody's ship suddenly met, like a special place with its own nature, climate, people and traditions I will discover and understand someday, I will need to figure out, and I am obviously beautiful like a new land is.

• and I'm going to discover myself.